Starting an important project has always filled me with dread. It's not because I cannot complete it or even make a success of it...it's what I must give away in the process of doing it. Parts of me are chipped away and tossed into the creative soup that I seek to make. There are those who take on tasks with mediocre commitment and then, there are we others who seek excellence for our endeavor. We give completely to our chosen path.
The life altering projects in my life have been done well. I research and plan with a final outcome of success already in mind. As it evolves, I'm at the ready to alter steps so that the project itself is never in danger. Education. Love. Career growth. Family stability. Health. Fitness. Divorce. Reboot.
Before I understood my ambitious psyche, I struggled with perfecting the steps of a process. I have learned and am now able to approach life projects with a panoramic view. The sight beyond the horizon? It's already in my mind's eye and several paths present themselves. Fortunately, I now know that if one path is blocked, it's not a tragedy to step back and take another. That is the gift of age and experience. The wolf we feared breathing down our neck is imaginary; mid lifers know that true knowledge and fulfillment come on the journey to our final destination and rushing causes missteps. All our little projects, large and small build a joyful foundation and hammer in hand, I'm ready to chip away and write myself away, away, and away.
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